suffer....

Well last night i have a slight asma attack, and i have diffuculty to breath..... i was like walking about few meters but i dy felt like i been running for 10 big rounds in the field and my breath is hard to take in air. I can't even wallk further as i felt hard to breath and i decided to see doc. The doc said i have a slight asma attack and i been given a inhaler oksigen with a dose given inside.... after 10 minutes i felt better and i can breath again... the doctor give me a nasal spray and two medicine.. wau damn bitter leh.... after seeing doctor felt better but at night still abit hard to breath... i can't sleep properly and i cough and hard to breath.... i like turning around the bed for few hours and sleep at 5am in the morning i think... i cough and hard breath... haiz... worse day in my life...... then this morning,..... hz..... more cham cough and cough and cough... i can't even laugh nor stand straight.. coz painful man.... hz.... pain.... suffer..... bless me ya...... 

ntg special

well long time did't update my blog.... 

yesterday i went back to kepong with my b...e  and we had a dinner together and cook by my sis.. well quite nice 5 dishes and one soup.... haha... then nothing else special lol... aiya what to do???? really boring mah.... and back kepong dy late cannot go out watch movie or what dy coz raining heavy mah.... and the next morning we back cyber and about reaching the puchong told... i just remember that i forget to bring back my cert for the interview late in the afternoon and i have class on 11am so my b...e ask me to give her the house key and she bring me to university for class and she drive back to kepong and take my certs.... wau.... my girl girl... lol... haha.... ya la... sure mah... drive back leh.... more than 30KM and alone wooooh...... make me scare scare along the way she drive...... cannot msg her coz no credit.... later when she back to kepong she msg me and that she dy reach and get my certs and decide to dapau for me rice for lunch..... bfore that she in my house she play with my dog and suddenly saw a black shadow at the living room... haha.. she so scare thought is a robber or a stranger then mana tau is my bro haha..... scare him and she mention my name to my bro and she nv ever mention before lol.... she said ah...c***g forget take certs.... i take for him... lol.... can mention this name pulak..haha.. then when she back she msg me again that she wait me back home la... and wait me in university,..... i thought wana ask her go back home rest and do what ever she want 1st but no credit hz.... need her to wait.... so guity... sad sad...... then when around 1pm i off class i straight run down and look for her.... and there she was... hehe..... so happy saw her car.... but hor cannot let her see dy..... pretend pretend 1st..haha... thought wana act as security scare her dy mana tau she perasaan dy..... then later she bring me home and eat then rest for an hour and prepare for my interview dy... wau the company name web channel production... damn super duper small... but high salary for a internship job,.....haha... and i felt that is quite an easy job and just need us to run here and there and this job suits me the best coz i like to socialise and tend not to stay in one place lol.... hehe..... dunno suceed or not.. jsut hope that i can get this job.... hehe... guys wish me luck o... then we go class dy.... separately... sad sad... sob sob...... i go fom she go fit..... and we had a dinner together later night... hehe.... wong kok char chan teng.... yum yum bo.. my b..e haha..... next time bring u to others places eat ah..... love ya muchie o.....

love is right or wrong???

Guys what is love???? love is right or wrong??? can anyone answer me??? well i can said i lie to friends coz of love for someone but is that wrong... i dunno what is right or wrong in love.... i can said sorry for those who involve and i lie but what i lie is it because i wan to fool u guys or is it that time i really need you guys??? that time did i really need u guys or i only act to get attention from u guys??? besides my love life did i ever lie to u guys b4.... i asking frankly??? did i ever lie besides my love live??? if do tell me and prove to me.... you guys said in front of me this that and bla bla bla... and i never said aword y?? coz if you don't have a nice word to said just shut up as words can cut the heart and make the deepesst scar.... i'm not because i'm scare or what is because i respected you guys and don't wan the problem to become bigger.... if that night when u guys come down and i explain and answer everything u ask urself frankly will u trust or ask yourself will u ever will accept the answer or you will get more angry and shoot me with dozen and million of reason.... Love is weird and it can blind u for a moment and it can even blind u for live but love someone is it wrong??? or love someone too much is it wrong???? if u love someone and the one commited a crime and regreted could you forgive him/her??? for me yes i will forgive her as long as she regreted and nv ever lie to me again... yes i dunno whether i will be hurt by her a not but... i trusting her for now.... she did change and i can felt it.... she did not get angry often... and now even become more and more polite..... i love her and thats it... and i can never ever lie to myself i love her.... there are two circles of friends which one ask me to forget bout her and one circle of friends ask me to love back her... those who ask me forget her i know that you guys scare i will get hurt by her again and i understand thank you you guys for caring and concerning,..... while a group of friends ask me to accept her y??? coz they know me too love her... and too soft heart.... and they really understand me... y coz they know me longer and know me in every relationship is serious... they know me and understand about me but they did remind me to get her change before truely accept her... that day i really felt she regret and i really felt her heart open and she really cry out.... i melt my cold heart when she cry on my shoulder and maybe is really our faith to be back together.... guys give her one more chance or guys give me one more chance.... if she can't change then let her sometimes to change.. and guys from now on whther bout my love relation or what you guys ask i tell.... and if you guys felt that is not worth for me to ask for one more chances from you guys then fine... just delete my msn or whatever and thats all.... for those who give me support all those day.. thankyou and as i promise if i really win the kickstart if i really win... whether we are friends or not the money i will still pass it to u guys.....  friends or foe, pals or enemies, chances or punishment is all decided by u guys.... and i can said i nv ever fool u guys and i did use my heart to friend u guys.... and i did......

i have doubt and problem....

well i dunno what happen and i dunno what have been discuss among those girls.. and i was so so so so so so so..... curious.... well man out there beware of the girls and beware of them especially especially when girls talking or having a meeting among them self...... Now i have a feeling of hz..... and girls girls girls make me felt scary of them.... i just wan to ask and what i get is forget bout it.. start everything a new day... no more past... and another reply don't ask girls about girls talk.... if you have a doubt and about you will you ask???? and now it seems that i'm the one who were wrong and i mean the one who should be blame..... well i swear to god if i nv treat a friend with a heart i should die from the day it started.... One thing i hate the most is talk and talk and talk behind my back and is talk..... i can;t bare it the thing i sense that when she msg me i can sense the blaming wau so strong.... and when ask.... only answer i should not tell you anything... just promise people what you promise.... hey is i really make the promise that day in the bus??? Is it really i who said out the condition...... is it i who said that the RM200 for them?? IS NOT ME who make the condition... yes i did do the sign but is it from my heart... ya i admit that rm10000 if i win rm2000 is for them to vacation and i did not denied it and rm1000 for the sponsoring of projector and i did not denied also... but rm200 is not me who make the condition ok??? I dunno y u guys did not see... and i dunno y......????? and if u guys think i'm not even worth mentioning or even what just tell me and from now on i know what to do..... and i mean it.... in my entire life i never ever treat friends as fools and i never ever treat friends badly... Did i do anything to you guys that will make you guys bankrupt or lost anything??? If do sorry and tell me what have you guys lost... money??? if so tell me.... I dunno what is the effect for me now... but i can said ur heart is feeling not good and why why why.... when angry appear in your mind and when it really really appear bias will appear and all the thinks spoken up will be double and i mean salt la.... personal opinion and when those who spoke it out and told others... the influence will be more and more and what dicussion make is it from the own pure heart..... or is it really from bias..... if wan discuss with all those involve... and discuss it.... dun discuss it without those involve not there as it isn't fair for anyone who can't defend itself.. and it isn't fair when u dunno what have been judge on you and it isn't fair........ who should i get this answer from now...... For those who are my friends and pals out there... ask yourself frankly when did i used you guys and when did i do something to harm you guys.... ask yourself whenever you guys need help did i stretch out my hand??? did i ever shouted at you guys and when you guys down did i ever stamp my feet on you??? Ask yourself frankly...... and i swear that i nv used you guys for anything and if i do, do tell me about it........

What is love?

Guys do you know what is love??? Or do you guys ever experience love???? Love can hurt you the most and make the deepest cut in your heart and leave a scar on it but love can also heal your heart. Is it true??? Can anyone really prove it??? 

Greater love has no one than this, than to lay down one's life for his friends.

Well what is love?

LOVE is when you can SAY to someone, "I LOVE YOU!"

LOVE is when you get to HOLD someone's hands.

LOVE is when you can TALK on the phone for hours.

LOVE is when you give a HUG to someone.

LOVE is when you got to ACCOMPANY her for shopping for hours
LOVE is when you GIVE someone a massage.
LOVE is when you SHOW someone you care!
LOVE is a GOOD feeling.
LOVE is EMOTIONAL and SWEEPS me off my feet!
LOVE is a GOOD feeling.

LOVE is UNEXPLAINABLY MAGICAL!

LOVE is LAUGHING and CRYING together.
LOVE is buying presents.
LOVE is CARRYING each other's burden.
LOVE is LENDING someone your shoulder!
LOVE is GENEROUS!
LOVE is APPRECIATIVE!

LOVE is TRANS-ETHICNITY!

LOVE is TRANS-GEOGRAFICAL!
LOVE is TRANS-GENERATION!

LOVE is COLOR-BLIND!

LOVE is FOOD to the soul!

LOVE is to care and to concern, to show respect to each other and to enjoy cheerfulness and hapiness together with the one you love..... 

LOVE have so many kinds of love whether couple love, parents love, friendship love, pet's love and etc....

HOW DO LOVE APPEARED AND HOW DO IT WORK???

LOVE does'nt come by force nor by luck... LOVE come naturally, LOVE come with time just like when a baby was born he felt everyone is a stranger to him, he is alieanated but what make him bond with her parents??? Is time that we dedicated to the baby, the time we sacrify, the way we raise him up, the time you being together with him, the time when the baby wake you at night you did't angry but with a smile and care and said "DON"T CRY MUMMY AND DADDY IS HERE"! the effort we put in it and thats when the love start to grow.. when the baby recognised love and when the baby felt protected in ones hug is all because of the feeling of love..... LOVE need time to grow with and need time to make sure we are familiar with the one we love around us.... LOVE grows when we share the same passion, share the same food, do the things together, share the burden and every relationship that end with faliure is because of one main thing that is communication.

The word "communicate" in Greek is the word "koinonia" which means fellowship.

communication with your partner or the one you love is important as understanding means that you guys will have no problem to live together but if your communication have a problem and thats all the problem started misunderstanding...

DO YOU KNOW GUYS THERE ARE 5 POWER OF WORDS

i.  WORDS go DEEP into a person's SOUL.

ii. WORDS can BREAK a person.

iii. WORDS GUIDE our LIVES.

iv. WORDS have great DESTRUCTIVE power.

v.  WORDS DETERMINE the RELATIONSHIP.

Well some idioms said that a word is mightier than a sword

"There is one who speaks like piercings of a sword, but the tongue of the wise promotes health"

well boys and girls to have a good relationship and maintaining it you need to understand them and here the question HOW MAN AND WOMAN ARE WIRED?

Well man are like RUBBER BANDS...why???

because man will need sometimes to be alone and not to be stick together all the time as they have their private times too.... but one thing best about man is that they will start from where they stop.. for example when they stop at stage 3 they will continue back stage 4 and so woman out there do not over occupied your man times as if a rubber band get to tense you will know what will happen thats is break. BUT when you sometimes open your hand it will be back the old shape and the man will love you more than ever before....

Woman are like waves???

because they will have high wave when everything becomes joy and happy and the peak of the moment but every peak they will be the down fall of a woman and the boys will felt weird and dunno what happen their girl friend just shout and said wana break up and what the boys will do is just said "WHAT DID I DO WRONG WOH?!?" and thats all breakup starts... boys perfect tips is that every girls emotion is just like the econpmy of the world... the chart will be up and down then to the peak and drop to the lowest point but what can you guys do to prevent it... answer is do nothing.. as nothing can prevent them.... on the lowest point girls will think back their deepest sorrow and everything start to appear back bad memories..... and boys remember one think resist the temptation to provide solution althought how smart are you... just listen to them.. yes listen is all the girls need and after a while their stock just like been inject with extra money and raise to the peak again... remember guys... you can't prevent the waves in the girls life but you can always surf with the waves.......

Hope all the guys and girls out there understand your partner and everything will have  agood ending and remember when you guys end up in a marriage is not happily ever after but a new begining in life with the new one you love and remember that there will be no more single live but you will need to do everything with the person and in years time another person in your life too...

REMEMBER LOVE is to concern, share and to communicate, guard your love one, and love need time to grow.. if you in a relationship tolerate your partner and don't ever change them but let your love make them change.. love a person is with who they are and not love the person that who you want.....

1001 gurauan belum tentu mengukir satu semyuman

tetapi hanya satu sindiran sudah cukup melukakan hati seseorang

dan hanya dengan kasih sayang sudah cukup untuk membuktikan 

saya sayang kepada mu... I LOVE YOU.....

to all couples out there happy valentine

Alamanda (9 Feb)

well.. really still felt a bit down and still can't get over it so asked my roomate to go for a movie and he said sure... so we take a bus t429 and when to putrajaya sentral and change to putra nadi to alamanda. Along the way i bring the DV Cam to experiment how to use it and capture everything i need.... b4 going to alamanda i really thought of watching a movie but suddenly when i reach the cinema it reminds me of someone and felt no mood anymore.... so i tell my roomate that we have a walk and see i can get any idea from it..... then he said ok... and we walk and i decided maybe to buy a coffee maker machine and indeed i bought one... haha.... i call my mom and ask her that i'm going to buy the machine and she ask me to think by myself as i'm already grow up.... so i have a thought and decided to buy it which cost me RM300.... SO i straight go to the atm and withdraw the money. Then i when to parkson, cool storage Giant, and carefore to search for espresso bean and milk to make cuppocino... i buy all the things and is already late and we rushed back home..... i'm quite happy with the machine right now and i'm going to experiment more on how to make a good coffee and the main idea is i wan to take a video to make sure i can compete rm10000 in the nescafe kickstart......

o ya forget to list out 8 feb.....

haiz so "sui" seee what she hate done to my face......

i only do this nia mah....... haha....